I finally wrote the note. It’s getting that bad again. I just hope none of this gets to the point where they can all read it. 

I am never going to be with you again. There is never going to be anything between us, and you will never look at me the way you used to. It won’t stop me from loving you, but it’s gonna hurt. It has been hurting a lot recently, and it will continue to hurt. I’ll do anything for you. Just remember that, okay? I really love you.